Friday, 28 August 2009
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I Believe In Love
Love, is there anything better than love?
The worst disease out there is not cancer, it's not AIDS, it's not Malaria.... it's the feeling of not being loved.
I think that's why America is the way it is. People have given their love to someone they shouldn't have; and it resulted into them getting hurt. Now in order to "protect" themselves they refuse to get into deep relationships because they "don't want to get hurt"; and then after that they fantasize about this romantic love relationship that they're ultimately never going to get because they focus too much on keeping their hearts out of danger. . .Now let me tell you this, now, this may sound foolish....no.....this may sound crazy; but I believe that love really does conquer all. . . Because the fact of the matter that Love is God, and God, being The Creator and the Great I Am, is, in fact, all powerful.
The reason why America is in this great downfall is because we have stopped putting our trust, faith, and most importantly our love in God. . . I've grown into this state of nirvana, where I just know that God is going to take care of things. . . I don't need to date because I know God is going to provide me with a wife. . . I don't need to worry about the future because I know that God will take care of me (This doesn't mean I shouldn't try. . . this actually means I should try my hardest in order to fulfill Gods plans). . .Now it all boils down to this... Forget about your friends and family and whatever and answer this one little question. Are you worried about your future?
`ily landers
Monday, 20 July 2009
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Now is the time :]
A time of change has come.
Not only within myself but within others that I hold closely to myself.
A life of love and independence has overcome me, and I'm happy that it has.
There's a season for everything... and I think now is my season of change and my season of learning
`ily landers
Monday, 25 May 2009
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I can live only wholly with you or not at all...
It's been a while since my last post, but no matter.
My last post was a love letter that Ludwig Van Beethoven wrote. As I read over that letter, one small sentence stuck out to me; "I can live only wholly with you or not at all". Beethoven puts out all that he is with this one sentence, and honestly I think that our generations have lost sight of this kind of raw emotion.
We have become people of unclear motives and palpable intentions. We have lost sight of love and all that it holds, and no one is really making an effort to gaining love back... As each day goes by we as people become more jaded, cynical, and lazy. We look at the bare minimum, and we accept it; we find it pointless to go for the gold when we would be happy just having the bronze. Striving has become obselete.
I've spoken to friends of this tragedy, even they (people in which I highly esteem) don't seem to care. This is the age of un-innocence. Where people find love just a pointless burden. Friends have asked "Why should we struggle so much, when we could just have fun for the rest of our lives?" Although I love to have fun, I would rather not be alone for the rest of my life.
`ily landers
Friday, 08 May 2009
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Love Letter.
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
(Ludwig van Beethoven, Forever Ours)
`ily landers
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
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Explanation.
So my last post on Xanga didn't seem to make that much sense; and I don't think that it was supposed to.
In my last post, it talks about the end of a relationship, no, a whole era of love. Well, what the generations ahead of us considered love. That piece, to me anyways, defined the age of uninnocence. It showed how seemingly perfect relationships, just aren't as nice as they look.
Times are changing, and so are relationships. Everything that we once knew about love and fidelity, has in fact been thrown out of the window. We (as the up and coming generation) have lost sight of what the previous generations thought was important. Now, of course there are going to exceptions, but for most of us I know that to be true.
One thing that I'm afraid of is the next generation. I have visions of them hating us. Hating us because we couldn't show them love or affection; because well, we didn't really understand what love is, and we never really cared to understand.
`ily landers
Sunday, 26 April 2009
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Goodbye Mr. Big! The End of the Affair.
“Is there someone else?”
"This is not about anyone else. This is about us.”
“That’s not answering the question.”
“This is about us.”
“It’s a yes or no question. Is…there…someone…else?”
“No.”
“Liar. You’ve been coached, haven’t you.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Someone’s been coaching you on what to say.”
“This is about us. Not about anyone else.”
"See? There you go again.”
“Why do you have to make this harder.”
“I’m not making it harder. I have to get a cigarette.”
“I have to go to sleep. Why won’t you let me sleep.”
“You don't deserve to sleep.”
"I haven't done anything wrong.”
“You haven’t done anything right, either.”
“Thank you for making Mr. Big a nicer guy.”
That was in June and by then, the statement was meaningless almost to the point of being an embarrassment to the two major players.
By then, it was already over.
By then, disgust, self-loathing and hatred had set in.
By then, the female golf pro was calling, but Mr. Big had yet to say, “I want to be with someone ‘normal.’ I want to have a normal life.”
Because at that point, on the surface, everything seemed status quo. Everything except the weather.
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The "Friend" Factor. Part Two
Long story short. I've lost a group of friends that I thought I was close to. However, by losing those "friends" I've learned how to become a more resilient person whose passions aren't driven by what other people think. I've also gained a rather large group of new friends.
There's a time for everything right? So maybe this is my time to make new friends, and maybe this is your time to evaluate the friends that you have. I know that I've began to rethink the friendships that I have under my belt, so wouldn't it be safer to learn from someone else's mistakes instead of making your own?
Well no matter, there are things in life that come as surprises; and then there are the things in life that you know are going to happen, but end up shocking you when they do.
`ily landers
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
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The "Friend" Factor.
Living in a rather "social" scene, I've learned to be a more resilient person, especially when it comes to relationships and friendships. There are always going to be those friends that only have you around until they "cash-in" (i.e. Back-stabbing, deceive you, steal something/someone from you). These are the friends that you just don't get too close to, they'll trade trade you in for something better, if it means they can get ahead of you.
Let's just say that I got too close to these types of people.
This past week has been a whirlwind of drama, damages, and rebuilding. I have indeed lost a couple of friends that I thought I was close to. We talked about everything, whether that be sex, class, STDs, shopping, EVERYTHING. Let's put it this way, when they cashed in, they really cashed in. I fought them, I tried to talk it out, I forgave them, and then I tried to be their friends again; but somethings people just can't take back.
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To be continued...
`ily landers
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
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"Paging Dr. Heart"
In surgery, when working with an open heart you must work with extreme caution; in relationships, it's quite similar.
When revealing your whole self to someone it can make or break a relationship (friendship or otherwise). When ones heart is open in surgery, it's easy for it to stop beating. You could show them who you really are beneath that pretty exterior, and if they don't like it they shutter, leaving you abandoned and ultimately alone.
With a normal injury you might need to go to the hospital to get it fixed, but in these cases there's no "heartbreak" hospital. It's easy to get lost in that pain of heartbreak.
But I think an important question you need to ask yourself; is it me, or is it them? This can determine wether your struggles are valid or not. If it's you then you can fix it, renewing the whole relationship before it's too late; but if it's them then you need to walk. There's no use in cutting your heart open over someone that can't see that they're hurting you.
`ily landers
Sunday, 12 April 2009
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Pain. And The Sweet Things That Come With It.
In the world of fine arts being in pain is a very good way to start a new career. In business, pain can motivate you to reach the top. Now, in life however, pain can lead you into much more troublesome predicaments.
A few days ago, I had a conversation with one of my very good friends Carolyn Wriot.
Carolyn, in my eyes was a very successful young woman, running her own little restaurant in down town Seattle. We talked and talked about her relationship with a deadbeat underachiever, named Stanford. How the whole relationship was leading nowhere and she wanted to leave him, but he had promised that he would change for her; and she couldn't just leave someone that was willing to change for her.
This reminded me of a time where I felt the same way. Through it all I kept telling myself that "I can make this work", even when I didn't believe it. It was a hard time, and even with all of the friends that I had supporting me, I felt lonely and worthless...
Throughout the whole conversation I could feel the pain that was in her voice, the excruciating pain of heartbreak, and how that pain just seems to never heal. I knew in the back of my mind that this would make her cynical towards love, after all this was one of her first "serious" relationships.
It's funny how heartbreak can do that to a person. It can make someone of complete autonomy turn into a pile of jaded pessimism. Maybe that's why the death of romance has occurred. Maybe the generations upon generations of hopeless romantics have finally taught us something. That we can no longer handle the heartbreak, or that we don't want to handle the heartbreak, especially if that heartbreak happens more than once.
When did it become rudimentary to look at what things are going to cost us, instead of looking at what we're getting in return? There's no doubt that we have become callous, we castigate love and romance. We denounce people who think that "love conquers all", calling them fools for giving up their lives, careers, and/or power to fall in love.
Lets face it humanity has become an entourage of vituperative mindsets.
`ily landers
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